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I’m very good at tying knots…at least tying myself in knots. I recently was revisited by my old friend chest pains. This time it was a bit more serious. I had been hiding a lot of stress and not having anything that could release it. My exercise was near zero, my meditation habits were poor,  I even had stopped listening to and enjoying music! Even those closest to me had noticed how stiff and rigid I had become.

Needless to say, my doctor was less then thrilled with me. Once again, I was reminded sternly that I was “a walking heart attack and if I don’t change I will be dead in six months!” I think that scared me more then the physical things.

I am now reminded that I need to take things less seriously. It was such an interesting 2012, with so many highs and lows, that I had forgotten what in between felt like. It seems like I have been living my life for the high and low moments. I need to find that proper balance and also do better about letting my stress go. Shouting if I need to, exercising more regularly, writing more often. Sometimes, it’s ok to be angry, it’s ok to be sad, it’s ok to be happy.

I wise friend and mentor used to tell me all the time, “Craig, don’t take things so fucking seriously”. This was usually said in times of great stress.  I need to return to that advice.


I feel reborn today. I feel like I am ready to be the best me that I can. They say that when you hit bottom, you have nowhere to go but up. Over the past eight months, I have certainly seen my share of bottoms…physically, personally. professionally, mentally, and emotionally. Almost to the point that I didn’t think I could go on another second. But, with the help of friends and my higher power, I not only survived, I came out stronger and better than ever before. I am now ready to be my best me!

It’s time to really focus on what I want to do with my life and how I can best impact the lives of others. Time to devote my life to helping others and doing what I can to better my world!

We live in a divisive world. We live in world full of blame and hate. Who does that make happy? Do you feel better about yourself when you are putting others down? I know I don’t. And I am guilty of this. I admit it. I am not proud of myself. My friends deserve better.

I have strong views and opinions. I think it is important to express those views. I think it’s important to express my opinion and the reasons behind it. That doesn’t mean I need to belittle someone else and tell them that their opinion is wrong just because I don’t agree with it. It’s time to return civility into our discourse. It’s time to start the healing process to end the divisions. We are a diverse country. That is our strength. We can have our disagreements but at the end of the day do what is best.

Negativitiy takes up so much time. It also produces an energy that spreads. Why not spread a positive energy. Why not spread joy and comfort instead of hate and venom. It’s time for all of us to be the change. It’s time to take a step back and really celebrate the joy in life. It’s time to find that common ground to help all people…regardless of the differences. Be the change.

How can we make a difference with others? We can start by changing ourselves. Try to be more civil…more understanding…more open minded. And really stop taking things that others say and post so seriously. Once you make the change with yourself, others will follow.

How many of us get in our own way? I certainly do. I seem to suffer from the “misery loves company” thing a lot lately. It affects my moods…it affects my job…it affects how I interact with people…it affects my health. And none of these in a good way. I seem to have lost a lot of my motivation. Time to wake up and change!

I think I lose focus on what I want…and what I need to do to get my wants. I tend to focus on negative aspects and not on the good things around me. I have some great people in my life. I have people who want to help me. But, I need to do it! Sometimes, it’s just hard to do…hard to paint that smile on your face when you are suffering inside.

I need to get back to my basics. I need to focus on positive people. Get rid of a lot of the anger. I need to exercise a lot more! I always feel best when I do. And I need to be more consistent with my writing!

Funny how we are always our own worst critic…and how we are also our own worst enemy. Time to be person that I can…and have been. It is all inside of me!

The topic today is what I want people to know about how living with diabetes affects me. That is such a difficult subject for me. I think there is so much that people should know. I guess the best place to start is with the physical things that I feel. The biggest for me right now is that my feet are numb…I feel…but everything is tingly. I also battle with keeping my blood sugar regulated…I sometimes just feel lousy! Dizzy, light-headed, and sometimes just having that sick feeling.

I think that’s the easy part. The hard part is the depression. I can’t eat what I want (but sometimes still do). I tend to binge eat, which makes me more depressed. My weight yo-yo’s…always going up and down. My schedule makes it difficult to exercise or eat properly…which makes matters worse! I was told originally that depression goes hand in hand with diabetes…I do have people that I talk to…but just understand that sometimes I just don’t feel good!

I guess the best thing I can tell everyone is to really watch what they eat and to get lots of exercise. Especially my friends who have “reached a certain age”. Get checked if you have any symptoms of this horrible disease. And really educate yourself.

Today’s #DBlogWeek topic is what would be the one device I would like to see to help with diabetes control. This is an easy one…and one I’m sure will be repeated over and over for this topic: a way to check your blood glucose without drawing blood.

I have actually given this a lot of thought over the past couple of years. I think I would like to see a device like a wristwatch. The face of it…instead of the time…tells you what your level is. And then when you got within five of a preset parameter either way, the “clock” would start to beep to give you a warning. That way, you can take appropriate measures before you hit the critical stage. And they could be fashionable as well…different color bands and shapes for every occasion. Can you imagine what you would save in money on test strips alone! A lot of non-diabetics don’t realize how expensive those little strips are. The device could pay for itself in a very short time!

I really have gotten to the point where pricking the finger a few times a day doesn’t bother me so much. I have the little hole marks all over the tips of my fingers to show. Also, a couple of blood stains on various things in the bathroom…which is where I test. But if I could invent one thing to help all diabetics, it would be that. Until then, keep checking everyone!

The topic today is one thing to improve. Just one? I think I could name several! I think the biggest factor in my diabetic life that I need to improve would be stress and the way I react to it.

When I am stressed I tend to overeat and underexercise. Which is the craziest thing because I know that when i do that I just get depressed. Especially with the exercise, it actually relieves the stress. The overeating leads to my weight going up, which makes me more depressed.

I think I need to do more to force myself to exercise a bit more. The weather is great now…and I do have some great places that I can go for long walks or jogs. I also need to not sit at work as long and take breaks and get some fresh air. It will probably make me more productive there as well. When I get home at night, I need to take a long walk before I get on the computer. That will help me relieve the stress of the day. The other thing is to always pack something to eat at work. That will keep me from overeating…or more importantly…unhealthy eating.

This is my biggest challenge…one that has been a life-long battle. I really need to work on it and really get on top of my stress issues.

The topic for today is what I do well with my diabetes control. Wow! What a tough subject for me. I guess if there is one think that I really do well it would be that I have learned to recognize the signs of when I am doing well or not.

When my blood glucose level is high…it gives some obvious (to me) signs. My levels generally run from 70 – 130. That’s really good since when I was diagnosed I was averaging over 220 and when I got sick a couple of months ago I was at 230+! The feelings I get now when I am over 150, really makes me wonder how I survived feeling that way 24/7! It’s hard to believe that I went that long feeling lousy!

I guess if there is one piece of advice that I can give people it would be to have yearly physicals that include getting your a1c checked. With Type-2 Diabetes reaching almost epidemic numbers in this country, it is important to really monitor that. Also eat better! My big curse is the convenience of fast food. With my job and being single, it is much easier to pick up a burger than to come home and cook for one. That is something that I will always struggle with.

And now I have found another thing that I am good at…helping others avoid this!

Have a great week!

It’s funny what give me inspiration on my journey. Sometimes it can be a book…sometimes movies…sometimes music…a saying or phrase. But for me, lately I am inspired by the journey of others. Whether they are starting their own business…starting a new relationship…ending an old relationship…or living with disease or physical challenge. I want to share the story of someone who not only inspires me, but also encourages me. Her name is Lisa Craig.

Lisa graduated a year behind me in high school. Lisa is about to graduate from college this week. I want to share how she described it:

“I had been in the marketing and advertising industry for nearly 25 years. Then, all of a sudden, I couldn’t get a job. I’d be the VP of various ad agencies, I’d been in management for 15 years, I had my own business. Then, I wouldn’t get a call back on my resume because I didn’t have a degree.

Finally, I spent the last 4 years giving up my entire life, so that I could get a checkbox and a piece of paper. Many of my teachers commented that I could teach the classes I was taking. I probably could have. But, I still did it, always believing that there would be something I could learn.

There has been no time for friends or family. There has been no free time. For four years, it’s all been about school.

I have been surprised at how emotional this is getting for me. I really sense relief. I’m not quite sure yet how I really feel. Partly relieved, partly proud, partly sad at the cost and what I had to give up personally. And angry that in a couple of days, some people (who shall remain nameless) will see me as a professional because I have a stupid piece of paper. Even though I could have taught most of my “major” classes! I did it though, and I’ll be done and no one can take it away from me. I’ll be a professional, with 30 years of experience fresh out of school. No other new graduate can say that.”

What a story! This is someone, who despite all this, has held a full-time job, and also finds time to encourage others…particularly me. She is always sending me tips and recipes. And taking the time to see how I am doing.

Thank you Lisa! As you start the next chapter of your life, I wish you nothing but the best!

Ok…I will admit it…I am a morning person! I love gettin up early and getting my day going. I particularly like Monday mornings. I know…we all bitch about Mondays…the weekend is over…and for many of us it is time to go back to work. But look at it this way…every Monday we get the chance to reinvent ourselves. Every Monday, we get that chance to start again and make it the best week ever. You can’t do that any other day…unless your week starts on a different day.

I feel so blessed today. I have such great friends that are genuinelly concerned and care about me. I have a job that has shown me that they care enough about me and want me to succeed at a high level. And this week, I get to reinvent myself…be a better me…be a happier me. I love the fact that my sleep has returned! It feels so good to go to bed and actually get a restful six hours! And Saturday is Cinco de Mayo…you just know the Hispanic half of me has got to celebrate! LOL.

Also, a very good friend is ending a journey that started four years ago…one in which she overcame numerous obstacles. I will talk about her later…for now…everyone have a great week! Make it your best one!