Archive for the ‘Diabetes’ Category

I’m very good at tying knots…at least tying myself in knots. I recently was revisited by my old friend chest pains. This time it was a bit more serious. I had been hiding a lot of stress and not having anything that could release it. My exercise was near zero, my meditation habits were poor,  I even had stopped listening to and enjoying music! Even those closest to me had noticed how stiff and rigid I had become.

Needless to say, my doctor was less then thrilled with me. Once again, I was reminded sternly that I was “a walking heart attack and if I don’t change I will be dead in six months!” I think that scared me more then the physical things.

I am now reminded that I need to take things less seriously. It was such an interesting 2012, with so many highs and lows, that I had forgotten what in between felt like. It seems like I have been living my life for the high and low moments. I need to find that proper balance and also do better about letting my stress go. Shouting if I need to, exercising more regularly, writing more often. Sometimes, it’s ok to be angry, it’s ok to be sad, it’s ok to be happy.

I wise friend and mentor used to tell me all the time, “Craig, don’t take things so fucking seriously”. This was usually said in times of great stress.  I need to return to that advice.


I feel reborn today. I feel like I am ready to be the best me that I can. They say that when you hit bottom, you have nowhere to go but up. Over the past eight months, I have certainly seen my share of bottoms…physically, personally. professionally, mentally, and emotionally. Almost to the point that I didn’t think I could go on another second. But, with the help of friends and my higher power, I not only survived, I came out stronger and better than ever before. I am now ready to be my best me!

It’s time to really focus on what I want to do with my life and how I can best impact the lives of others. Time to devote my life to helping others and doing what I can to better my world!

The topic today is what I want people to know about how living with diabetes affects me. That is such a difficult subject for me. I think there is so much that people should know. I guess the best place to start is with the physical things that I feel. The biggest for me right now is that my feet are numb…I feel…but everything is tingly. I also battle with keeping my blood sugar regulated…I sometimes just feel lousy! Dizzy, light-headed, and sometimes just having that sick feeling.

I think that’s the easy part. The hard part is the depression. I can’t eat what I want (but sometimes still do). I tend to binge eat, which makes me more depressed. My weight yo-yo’s…always going up and down. My schedule makes it difficult to exercise or eat properly…which makes matters worse! I was told originally that depression goes hand in hand with diabetes…I do have people that I talk to…but just understand that sometimes I just don’t feel good!

I guess the best thing I can tell everyone is to really watch what they eat and to get lots of exercise. Especially my friends who have “reached a certain age”. Get checked if you have any symptoms of this horrible disease. And really educate yourself.

Today’s #DBlogWeek topic is what would be the one device I would like to see to help with diabetes control. This is an easy one…and one I’m sure will be repeated over and over for this topic: a way to check your blood glucose without drawing blood.

I have actually given this a lot of thought over the past couple of years. I think I would like to see a device like a wristwatch. The face of it…instead of the time…tells you what your level is. And then when you got within five of a preset parameter either way, the “clock” would start to beep to give you a warning. That way, you can take appropriate measures before you hit the critical stage. And they could be fashionable as well…different color bands and shapes for every occasion. Can you imagine what you would save in money on test strips alone! A lot of non-diabetics don’t realize how expensive those little strips are. The device could pay for itself in a very short time!

I really have gotten to the point where pricking the finger a few times a day doesn’t bother me so much. I have the little hole marks all over the tips of my fingers to show. Also, a couple of blood stains on various things in the bathroom…which is where I test. But if I could invent one thing to help all diabetics, it would be that. Until then, keep checking everyone!

The topic today is one thing to improve. Just one? I think I could name several! I think the biggest factor in my diabetic life that I need to improve would be stress and the way I react to it.

When I am stressed I tend to overeat and underexercise. Which is the craziest thing because I know that when i do that I just get depressed. Especially with the exercise, it actually relieves the stress. The overeating leads to my weight going up, which makes me more depressed.

I think I need to do more to force myself to exercise a bit more. The weather is great now…and I do have some great places that I can go for long walks or jogs. I also need to not sit at work as long and take breaks and get some fresh air. It will probably make me more productive there as well. When I get home at night, I need to take a long walk before I get on the computer. That will help me relieve the stress of the day. The other thing is to always pack something to eat at work. That will keep me from overeating…or more importantly…unhealthy eating.

This is my biggest challenge…one that has been a life-long battle. I really need to work on it and really get on top of my stress issues.

The topic for today is what I do well with my diabetes control. Wow! What a tough subject for me. I guess if there is one think that I really do well it would be that I have learned to recognize the signs of when I am doing well or not.

When my blood glucose level is high…it gives some obvious (to me) signs. My levels generally run from 70 – 130. That’s really good since when I was diagnosed I was averaging over 220 and when I got sick a couple of months ago I was at 230+! The feelings I get now when I am over 150, really makes me wonder how I survived feeling that way 24/7! It’s hard to believe that I went that long feeling lousy!

I guess if there is one piece of advice that I can give people it would be to have yearly physicals that include getting your a1c checked. With Type-2 Diabetes reaching almost epidemic numbers in this country, it is important to really monitor that. Also eat better! My big curse is the convenience of fast food. With my job and being single, it is much easier to pick up a burger than to come home and cook for one. That is something that I will always struggle with.

And now I have found another thing that I am good at…helping others avoid this!

Have a great week!

#DBlog Week – Find a Friend


“Think about the d-blogs you read that you think we may not know about and introduce us to one that you love!!”

I started this blog as a way to chronicle the journey through life that was happening at the time. Being Type-2 Diabetic is a big part of that. I was hoping that what I had to write would help others and possibly even encourage others to live a healthier life or at least entertain. Reading other blogs or even chatting with other bloggers was not something that I thought would happen. I would like to introduce you to a blog that I really enjoy. It is written by Leah and is called “lovehatediabetes” (

Leah is a Type-1 diabetic, since 2006,  who is juggling school and blogging and really writes with a humorous style that I really enjoy. I love the pictures and cartoons she uses to really illustrate what she is talking about. She is someone that I feel is an inspiration to others because she is so honest in her writing. Thanks Leah for the great posts and good luck with finals!

I look forward to participating in this wonderful event and posting about each topic.

As a diabetic, I have developed “fingertips of steel”. If you don’t understand that, it refers to the method that we test our blood glucose levels…usually several times a day. We get to draw a drop of blood…put it on a very expensive test strip….and have a meter tell us our level.

Currently, I am doing this twice a day…once in the morning…and once in the evening. For whatever reason, I tend to use the same finger the large majority of the time…my right index. Sometimes, I will use the middle finger, and very rarely may use one of the others. But it is almost always the right index. I have all of these tiny little holes all over it. Believe it or not, it rarely hurts anymore, and I’m one that hates pain. It’s such an unnatural act…for me anyways.

I went through a long period of time when I didn’t check the levels…I think I just didn’t want to know! I now check twice a day…morning and night. My levels run form 65 to 125…which is great for me! I still have times when I’m either too high or too low. I’m back to being able to physically tell so I can take corrective measures.

I never thought that I would be one that could poke myself…I hate needles. Now it just seems like part of my normal day. It rarely hurts anymore…and usually doesn’t bleed too much…so it is not as bad as it used to be. I would be interested in hearing from others with diabetes about what they go through…as well as others that have a medical routine that they never thought they could do.

I think it all becomes a matter of how you look at things. If you focus always on the negative in life you tend to get that. This seems to the case whether I am at work or just chatting with friends on Facebook. There is so much hate and venom in the world right now. It seems that for a lot of people, it is easier to focus on all the bad, instead of talking about the good, or finding common ground to build on. Why else do you think this country is such a mess? You have two opposing sides who really don’t care about you…all they are interested in is winning the next election. Do you really think they care about your job more than their own? Then…if they feel like they need more help…they will outright lie.

I have found that I have been sucked into this debate too many times, including about my own health. I get caught in that trap of how bad things are, that we can’t see the good in life. Sometimes I become a person who becomes defined by what I have instead of who I am. My doctor..who is wonderful…told me that, unless I get hit by a bus, or have something tragic happen, I will die from Diabetes. He meant that if I didn’t change my ways, I would have a shorter life. From that moment I was dying from Diabetes. I let that define who I was.

Now, I feel like I am a person who has Diabetes. It’s a part of me, but isn’t who I am. I am many things. I am a father, a brother, a grandson, a cousin, an uncle, a friend, I am Hispanic, a salesman, a sports fan, a music lover. I am even so much more than that. I am different things to different people. I embrace each aspect of my life and try to be a better person.

On my main page of this blog, I put that I am a work in progress. Each day, I try to learn a little more about myself and grow. I couldn’t begin to make up for the people I have hurt and the wrong that I have done. All I can do is be a better me. I can’t change my past…but I can make a better future…not just for myself…but for those around me. We all can.

As I look back on the past few weeks, I realized just how focused I have been on being caught in my own misery. I have been so worried and focused on the bad in my life that I forgot about what is good and wonderful. Just a small switch yesterday really made it a great day.

Yesterday had all the opportunity of a bad day…I had very little sleep…work had been tough…It was raining..I was feeling down. It took just a simple switch…I listened to music…to really put me in a great mood. Well, that and coffee. LOL. One little thing really mad the difference. Whenever I got down, I just started singing or at least focusing on a song or two that really made me happy! I had more energy…felt better…and related to people much better.

I think that inside of each of us we have that thing that brings us joy. It is easy to get caught up in the misery that we feel…the darkness. If we just switch that a tiny bit I think that you will feel much better…have more energy…and be able to enjoy life so much more.